This is a truth moment. It will help me release and prayerfully, it will help someone in the process.
Yesterday, was a difficult day for me. It was not hard, just difficult. I was lonely. I wanted to share my day with a male companion, not sexual, but a movie, dinner, walk in the park, watching TV, or just sitting in silence would have been nice.
I tried to wash clothes, look at movies, drink coffee, but nothing seemed to help. I thought about studying the bible, but I could not focus. So, I sat on my couch and my mind began to wander. I thought about all the things I could be doing and who I could have been doing it with. It took me minutes to convince myself it was acceptable to text a "man" from my past. I instantly knew that was not a good idea. God is so good!!! When he finally text me back, I had started driving to a shop, so my mind was elsewhere. He will make a way of escape!!!
I ended up in a store and of course, God allowed me to run into someone, who not only encouraged me, but I pray I was able to encourage her.
I took a path of celibacy, years ago, and sometimes I miss, not the act of sex, but the intimacy of company, and my girlfriends are not able to fill that void.
But my God gives me strength! He did not say it would be easy, but He did promise to never leave me.
I absolutely adore, love, and am so grateful for the move of God in my life, right now! I recognize the distractions, and I thank God for always protecting me, even from myself.
Maybe you are on this path. Be strong. Meditate on His promises. Remember, the season you are in and enjoy that season.
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8, Philippians 4: 8, Colossians 3:10, 2 Corinthians 5:17
Prayer gives you power to walk on purpose